A milestone is reached...

Yes, a very strange one it is too. This is my 100th post on this blog, and I wanted to make it matter, which is why I have been absent for a while. I couldn't think of anything really interesting and portentous to say to mark 100 posts on this blog. I must admit when I started in January last year I had no idea how long the blog would last, and there have been several occasions when I was tempted just to stop doing it, as there will be again.

So, where am I? I married young and for more than 25 years I was in a perfect marriage and had no interest in straying. In fact, I avoided any situations where I might be tempted. Then, my wife's sex drive started to fall over a cliff, and about five years later I started to go on line and chat to women about sex. I had my first physical sexual experience with another woman after joining a sex site two or three years later. That was a one-off and I've had some more of those, some successful, one or two disastrous, and a couple of longer affairs, then I met Mistress nearly two years ago and we have been meeting ever since. You will find all the details in past posts of this blog! I'm sure some of it makes for good reading ;)

Apparently, the average affair lasts for two years. As well as my secret life, I have achieved a lot of personal milestones and achieved a lot of things that I am truly proud of in the last eight or nine years, so it has been a very busy decade for me, and I will treasure the memories for ever. It is strange to think that only I will know about everything that I have done, as I have so far succeeded in keeping these strands of my life completely separate. Actually, that's not quite true. I have told Mistress about as much of my secret life as she wanted to know, and about a lot of my other life because she was genuinely curious - just as I know a lot about the different strands of her life. Another complication is that she has told me I am her therapy when things get too bad in her marriage.

How long will we stay together? I don't know. I keep flip-flopping between wanting to tell her we have to end it now, and still wanting to see her. LOL, I am incredibly weak! I was going to meet her next week for a walk and tell her at that time that it was all over. I was building myself up for the moment. So, what happens? She texted me today, and asked if I wanted to meet for sex first or a walk first? I got an immediate erection and texted back that sex first sounded good. I can't dump her after that, can I? They say a man's brains go due south if sex is on the horizon, and I've just proved it. Again.